Monday, March 14, 2011

Friday March Madness

Friday was pure madness as we rushed to get doctors' appointments completed so we could get out of Peoria, just as the Illinois High School Basketball Tournament was underway.

First things first was getting my labs drawn, which meant fasting blood work.  The blood work is no big deal when Jessica does it; it's the waiting for the labs to be drawn because I'm hungry that gets me all queasy.  Afterward, Jeff and I made a quick McDonald's order (sorry Abel girls...it wasn't at the Blue one) and hurried to my next appointment because all we knew was it was in Methodist Hospital.

We were very blessed as we strolled through the buildings with the old deer in the headlight look.  Various employees, hospital visitors and even a patient directed us and surprise, we made it to the reception desk early!  Yesterday was my initial appointment with Dr. Lancia (my new psychiatrist).  Jeff and I are both very impressed; especially that he not only is there for my psych medications, but he is also focused on my Lyme's symptoms.  He has started me on some totally different anti-anxiety medications to help me sleep, to wake up feeling rested, and to decrease nightmares.  Surprisingly I already feel a difference.  Woo!  I pray that the doctor/patient relationship will be successful on both sides and I will continue to stay on a positive road of mental healing.

After seeing Dr. Lancia for 2 hours, I was dead tired, but I had yet another appointment with my counselor.  It turns out that God gave us a miracle in that Pat, Jeff & my counselor, has been trying to see Jeff but scheduling was a mess, so I offered up my appointment so Jeff could see her instead.  So, before we hit Pat's office, Jeff went to Wendy's for a couple of cheeseburgers.  I was out cold, so I didn't care.  When we got to the Antioch Group Jeff went on in and I crashed out in the car.  For a nap in my little Chevy Alero, it was wonderful. :)       

Well, this crazy weekend of March Madness is complete, but next Friday the Madness begins again!

Love all of you ~ me

Tuesday, March 8, 2011

Feeling a Flaks

Have you ever just wished that the difficult moments in life could just disappear? I'm sure Job did.  Can you imagine being a true servant of God and then having God basically tell Satan that he can kill off, destroy, take away anything he wants of Job's, but he cannot take (a.k.a. kill) Job.  Job family was killed, his servants dead, thousands of animals gone, etc.

I'll be honest, I don't know if I could even have a flake of Job's Faith and Trust in God.

Jesus is my Savior and King, but if He left me and told Satan he could do whatever he wanted to do to me other than kill me; I fear my faith be shaken to the point that I would turn and follow Satan as my Savior.  What a NIGHTMARE!!!  Can you imagine the complete destruction that would take over your life...darkness & death?

Praise God I don't live in death and darkness, but I certainly can understand the fear some folks experience.  Each day is a mystery for me with the Lyme Disease; some days are fairly normal, some are filled with vomiting, and others are just filled with wonder.

God bless & love - Sydnu                                                                               8

Thursday, March 3, 2011

Everything is really getting hard

Hello Friends & Family ~

Life has not been an easy one and it is only becoming more difficult moment and moment.  Vomiting has increase, my vision is so blurry, I have double vision, I itch all over, stay dizzy, confused and even lost

My depression and anxiety aren't horrible, but they do bug the snot out of me.

I am loosing weight like crazy (which isn't a bad thing, but something I need to carefully pay attention too) and I'm starting to experience what my doctor referred to as a cancer patient experiencing chemo related hair loss.  I wake up just fine some days, but other days I wake up with sections of hair on my pillow.  It is a weird feeling.  It keeps me wanting to refrain from brushing my hair. 

I know all of my reactions can be silly, but I don't know how to express myself in any other way.  I thank you supporting me.

Love ~ Sydni