Jesus Please Help Me

Dear Jesus,

     Things are really becoming a struggle.  Physically moving around is frightening, especially the idea of falling down the stairs when no one is home.  No matter how much security I give myself by carrying my cell phone, if I fall it could get broken under me or slide out of my reaching distance; then I right back to were I began... home alone.
     I am having a terrible time keeping my feet under me.  I'm sure I look like a circus clown walking all goofy like with a cane wobbling and hospital gown wide open in the back mooning half the town.  My muscles just keep screaming regardless to things folks suggests I try, such as exercise, walking, or even bathing.  For example, Dr. Purtle, my chiropractor, and Callie, my massage therapist, have both suggested a warm relaxing bath.  Believe me, I am very fond of their 'bath' idea, except for one problem... how do I get out of the tub?  I need to get a forklift company on speed dial in my cell phone.  Ha ha!
     As for my actual chiropractic appointments and massage therapy appointments, they are wonderful.  I wish that they would just let me move in so whenever they had a free moment I could get spoiled with whatever treatment they deemed necessary.
     I have noticed problems with my speech and my hearing abilities.  I probably should get them both tested, but that would require some money to do so.
     Presently I am participating in a morphine related/opioid based research study.  This study is to access how well "Embeda" (the morphine based medication) controls my personal pain level.  I also have Morphine pills that serve as immediate release pain medication when the Embeda isn't working.
     I am also on to my third antibiotic and whew, it is really rough on my system.  I have aches and pains, I can't get comfortable, I'm having trouble breathing, I'm using the quad cane to walk, I can't drive, I am completely dependent on someone else; and that's just a portion of my Lyme's Disease.
     Well Lord, as you know we are looking at getting a referral to see Dr. Crist, a Lyme's Specialist, in Columbia, MO.  Lord, we have heard wonderful things about Dr. Crist, and we trust that if I am to have Dr. Crist as my doctor, then you will place me safely in the palms of his hands.


In Your Name We Pray ~
Sydni & Jeff